It's Hard to Remember to Live Before You Die.

Swollen thick, with nothing I can understand,
with nothing I can really plan.
And I don't want to know what comes next,
no I don't want to see.
I don't want to live before I pay my fee's,
so instead I found the trouble with the sky,
though still I can't map the issues of my life.
Heavy in the river, trying to float
and baby baby you aint no boat.
Away and such everything eventually goes,
and why pose the question if no one knows,
Why pose the question if everyone knows.
That's that, this is this,
the clock goes round while it tick tick ticks
and what im missing is what is going to be missed.
My chest is tight, and bursting will hurt.
To stitch me back up well that might be worse.
So keep that thread close,
casue you know i won't do it on my own.
You know how I get
when ive been feeling alone.

Skin Like Cracked Pavement

Trains coming Like a drunken girl pushing through the night. Smile, smile, smile. Stars and branches, bare feet and the cool dirt. I run, and rest. behind some old shed. It's coming. He finds me. It's here. It's loud like a lion in my head, and I know he's looking at me through the broken moonlight. And I know what he's thinking. We kiss, because I'm all he's ever wanted, we kiss and he doesnt know all im wanting is you. There, Feeling for you in the dark, I stood. I kissed. But you had already left. Long before when the lion's came and I held my own.
You were gone.

That was the last time I was comfortable kissing lips that don't belong to you. I don't think I will be again for a very long time. I hope that's ok.